Anita of Vernhail's Journal

[Filter: Sir Harry]

Ah, Sir Harry, I meant to ask, if you don't mind ... did everything turn out well, with that dreadful woman? I've been worried, and I do hope that hearing nothing about it is good news. You certainly have been acting in good spirits, and I hope that is an indication ...

If ... if you think it's none of my business, of course, simply say so and I won't ask any further.

The roads are not quite as awful as I had expected them to be ... They are still quite rough, at times, but they could be so much worse. It will be nice to get to Temair, at last, even if we've still a very long way to go...

I do miss the city. I suppose I'll see it again, someday, but never quite as lovely as it was for the Princess' return. Truly a sad thing, but ... but, I suppose the joy will be there for good, now that she's returned forever.

Current Mood: cheerful

[Filter: Sir Harry]

Ah, Sir Harry. I ... I have what you needed ...

Current Mood: nervous

[Filter: Private]

It ... it won't be so hard at all. I'll simply ask Father for some money, and if he asks what for, I ... I can tell him it's to buy a gift for Lady Eliza, since I did not give her one for the Festival. And we are going to see her soon, after all. He wouldn't argue, if it's a gift for Lady Eliza. Especially if I tell him I'm also getting gifts for her little boy, and for Lord Dean as well.

That's certainly enough to cover five hundred gold. Maybe even more, if that foul woman is not satisfied ...

It ... it won't be terrible at all. I'll just have to ask very nicely and ...

Oh, I hope he doesn't hear later that I didn't bring Lady Eliza anything, after all ...

Current Mood: working

[Filter: Private]

Oh, Diary ... I will miss them all so when we part ways. I know of course we will see each other again, but it just reminds me of being home, with everyone, running into the river in the summer and getting ssoaked to the bone ... I was such a girl, then, and I'm a lady now. With Lord Nicolas at my side, and I know I oughtn't ask for more, but ...

But oh, Diary. I feel so foolish for this, but it won't go away. I wish they could come to Conare and see all the wonderful things Lord Nicolas has given me. How very kind he's been. And I wish we could have supper together and share stories like that, more often, but ...

I am being so silly, Diary. So very silly.

Current Mood: sad

It looks like my family is making their plans to leave Eblar ... they haven't decided yet on a date that they've told me, but I do hope it's before the end of October. I would hate for them to be on the road just as it begins to get cold and possibly to snow. I suppose it has to be that way if they decide to stay that long, but I'm sure Father is taking that into consideration.

I will miss them, when they go, and I'll miss Eblar when I leave as well. I should very much like to come here more often, once I am wed. I do hope that's something I can do, as a lady.

[Filter: Private]

I suppose it can't be very long, now, before everyone leaves the city. And ... and I suppose my family, as well.

I do look forward to returning to Conare. I truly do... but it's been so long since I've seen everyone. I do wish that I could return home, just for a little while ...

But -- but I'm being silly, Diary, aren't I? Lord Nicolas is so kind and gives me everything I could dream of. And Eara is truly a wonderful child, and Conare is possibly my favorite place in the entire world, Diary. But ... I am being silly. I just wish that everyone didn't have to leave so soon, or that they could at least come to see me in Conare, just once in a while.

I suppose they're all much too busy for me, though, Diary. They all have important things to do ...

Current Mood: lonely

[Filter: Private]

It has been so long, and I did miss them all so dearly, but ...

... But I don't feel as though I'm the same girl they think I am, anymore. I'm so much older, now, and it's been so long since I was sent to Allba in the first place. And since Lord Nicolas saved me so gallantly. And I don't believe they can understand how much I've changed.

It can't be long now, before they leave, or I leave with Lord Nicolas ... I suppose it may be for the better. It's so strange now, much as I do love them all...

[Filter: Public]

Ah, my family's asked me to play for them, a bit, tomorrow, but I can't decide what at all I should play ... so many of the songs I like, I'm certain they wouldn't find as wonderful. But it'd hardly do well to try and play something I don't know as well, because I'm certain I would only make mistakes and embarrass myself ...

It's a difficult decision.

[Filter: Lord Nicolas]

Ah, my lord, I've heard news that my family should be arriving in the city by the end of the day .... will you come with me to see them, when they arrive? It's been so long since I've seen them, and I'm actually a bit nervous ...

Current Mood: hopeful

[Filter: Private]

Oh, I do still feel awful ... I'm sure things will work out for the best, but regardless. I hope I haven't made things worse ...

I -- I'm sure that things will work out for the best. I hardly knew of the situation, so I shouldn't feel guilty for asking ... not at all! Yes, that's right.

[Filter: Public]

It does seem like everyone is preparing to leave court ... it is a shame. I think I should like to stay here forever, if given the choice. There's simply so much to do, day after day. I hope the roads are kind to everyone traveling, though ...

Current Mood: worried

Ah, Sir Harry, wasn't it? Or Harold, perhaps, I've lost track ... would it be rude of me to ask how the travel progress is? I believe so many people leaving the city has me anxious that my family will miss many of their friends, before they arrive...

Oh, it's just so wonderful here, day after day. I think that, were I not the sort to enjoy these celebrations, I would be entirely exhausted by now ... but even if my feet ache terribly at the end of every day, it's a good ache. I suppose some people might find the days repetitive, but every day is just as glorious as the last, to me ... I somewhat hope that the celebration never ends. I had never thought that I would enjoy something so significant in my life...

I hope everyone is enjoying themselves as much as I am, truly. It would be terrible not to enjoy the celebrations at all...

Current Mood: content

[Filter: Private]

There's so much to be done before they arrive ... I'm sure Lord Nicolas will help me, but, oh. I'll need to have all of my finest gowns ready, and I should write a letter to them saying how thrilled I am that we'll be seeing one another ... I suppose it wouldn't arrive before they left, but oh, all the same.

Oh, Diary, I'm so excited. I have missed them all so, and it has been so long ... I fear that we won't recognize each other when they arrive. I'm certain that's just a silly fright to have, but regardless ... Oh, Diary, I don't even know where to start! I truly need to calm myself down, first of all, but ...

Current Mood: excited

Ah, I truly don't think I'll ever grow tired of the festivities ...

I, ah, received a letter, as well, and my family should be here by the end of June, I believe ... ! It's been so long since I've seen them. I wonder if they'll recognize me at all, with how much I've grown ... how much more of a lady I am. I'm eighteen, now, after all ... It doesn't seem like it was that long ago that I was just a girl at home in the library. Time is such a strange thing ... I wonder if all girls feel this way, when they become women?

Current Mood: thoughtful

Ah, we're almost there, Lord Nicolas, Lady Mariana! The driver said that it should be within the next day or so ... it's been truly interesting, to see how much more crowded the roads have gotten, the closer we've come to Eblar. I can't wait, to see how everything looks in the city ...

Oh, and, ah, again, thank you so much for the help with the music, last time, everyone. It was very helpful.

Current Mood: excited

[there is a jumble of music notes here that form a melody, but have no indication of tempo or time signature, just a music staff and some notes.]

... I thought this was how Fairy Land went, but ... I really can't remember. Oh, I wish I'd brought the music along, but I suppose I'll do all right without it ... I wish I could play it from memory, though, for all the children. It is still my favorite ...

Current Mood: bored

Ah, I learned a new song, in the past few weeks, I'm looking forward to having plenty of time to practice it ... Does anyone else know the story of the Snow Princess, and her search for a prince to save her and take her away? I don't know all of the song, yet, it gets so complicated in the middle, but ... ah, well, I'm fond of it. I think it's originally a Korin story, but I might be wrong ...

Ah, everything is so busy here. There's so much to do ...

Ah, I had a thought, for the question ... it's still very much winter here, in Conare, though I think I can feel spring approaching, slowly ... simply taking its time, I suppose ... and, you see, spring is my favorite season, when everything comes back to life again ...

So, I thought ... I thought it would be nice for everyone to share their favorites, and perhaps why ...? It's a bit of a silly question, I know...

[Filter: Lord Nicolas]

Ah, happy Rose Day, my lord ...

Current Mood: hopeful

Oh ... I was trying to think of a song to play for Eara, but I just can't seem to get the notes right ... I don't know what's wrong with me. My head is just so scattered lately ... I know I can do better than this, but it's so hard to concentrate...

Current Mood: worried

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